Letters to my future self

20050528

Letters to my future self

may 27th - the new enviroment

new starters are finally out today. popped over to cine to pick them up + trade cards with ah long. no, i didnt break my promise to myself, i went over only becos i wanted to get the starters.

went over to amk aft that, mucked around with the bunch there for abit. they are well... ok ppl, jus not the best trading partners and much less savage opponents. everyone there was also pretty much preoccupied with the new starters like i am, as a result we saw no drafts today, however constructed games are still up. titans still proved to be pretty difficult to play, i cant seem to draw the correct cards in time.

went dotaing with them at the lan shop above. its my 1st time playing dota in a lan shop. or rather the 1st time i'm playing with live opponents other then my brother. they kept using random pick heroes, which was bad for me, cos i've so far only been working on 1 char, thus i know nuts abt the other chars and besides i usually play on version 5.84, they played version 6.08 today. lucky for me, they arent the greatest of players and my team won 3 out of 4 games, me scoring more kills then i had initially hoped for.

stayed in the area until 11+, missed the last bus home. ack. had to take a cab.
still, it beats rotting in cine

-out-

20050525

Letters to my future self

24th may - freedom

today is the 1st day since i decided that for a period of time i shd not be wasting my aftns at some random mart branch waiting for things that will nv happen, like drafts for example.

the new found freedom is a refreshing idea, dropped over to town and wandered around aimlessly. ok actually not that aimlessly, i had some rough idea in mind wad i wanted to do, but i didnt plan for where i wanted to go 1st, so i jus randomly walked around. i have to whole aftn anyway.

went over to the post office to send some stuff home, then to PI, then to kino where i picked up some comics. walked around abit more, until i decided that maybe i shd catch a movie, considering that its a weekday and i havent caught star wars yet. to cine it is.

there i forgot the 1st and most impt rule of watching a movie at the cinema, go to the toilet 1st b4 going in. 30mins into the movie i was seriously regretting my decision not to. thankful i didnt bring in a drink, if not i would have been alot worse. i was kept on the edge of my seat for the remainder of the movie, not due to the action sequeneces of the movie of course.

overall the new movie is much better as compared to the pervious 2, there were alot of action sequences and alot less talking. however it IS less exciting to watch the duels when u know already whos going to win or if the duel will end as a draw.

went down to the shop at amk aft the movie. met some ppl, hung around for abit b4 heading home for dinner.

overall, i've had alot of fun today and its definately a refreshing break from my usual habits. i look forward to my next off.

-out-

20050520

Letters to my future self

may 20th - change

... is exactly something i need. now. perhaps distance too....

-out-

20050519

Letters to my future self

19th may - the fine line between being helpful and jus being kaypoh

sigh, as much as i would like to believe that singaporeans are really helpful ppl, sometimes facts jus prove otherwise. maybe thats their way of extended their help, u be the judge

scenerio 1:

van knocks into a woman

scenerio 2:

woman walks along pavement, suddenly sits down and lies down in the middle of the pavement.

from my perspective, a person who really wans to help would go forward and see if he can offer any assistance or at least approach and ask if theres any problem.

instead here is wad happened:

for both scenerios - witnesses incident, whip out phone, presses 3 farmilar numbers, provide an address and leaves the scene.

well done.

sigh.

oh well, been calculating my leave... i shd be out by the end of july. go me.

-out-

20050516

Letters to my future self

15th may - ack

sigh, boomba at the pcq again today. i swear the mantis program doesnt like me lor, my tiebreakers for both t1 and t2 are insane. from positions 1st to 9th, 5 of them are my opponents, which is utter nonsense, why does everyone get to kio all the free frags and i have to be the one to wade thru all the pros (to make things worse, i had to play with uber annoying ppl like bert and anthony *pulls hair*). life is unfair. and i had a lousy deck to begin with. ack ack.

bert was annoying the hell out of me, his play style was not only slow, it was also damn gu niang. several times in our game, i really wanted to ask him if he left his balls at home.... brr... i mean... walls with defense pumps, wtf, really... and to think i lost. i'm an E-diot.

anthony was no better. our game was so lop sided it wasnt even funny at all lor. on turn 8, he had nothing on the board aft his atk, but our life totals are -24 (me) to 15(him). even if i send all my guys in for the direct atk, i'll still lose. ANNOYING, I TELL YOU.

ended up 10th place, leading the pack of 4 wins by quite a big difference in tie breakers. my last game was with hairul actually. we made a quick calculation and decided that there was no way a 4 wins would make it in, unless wenhan loses to some kuku. so basically we played it out and aft wenhan won, i was distracted for awhile by orry and suddenly i went to recount the number of 5 wins and above. for some strange reason, this time round i saw that it was possible for a 4 wins to get in. so i 'conceded' to hairul, then again he was punching my face in aft i missed my 1-3 drops.

right aft our game, we realised that not only was my most recent calculations wrong, anthony had annoyingly lost his last game and as a result, there are 9 persons with 5 wins and above. ok, so there no chance in hell that i'll make the cut. when they announced the top 8, we realised that hairul too missed the cut. argh. if hairul had conceded to me, tim would be the one missing the cut. double argh.

pfft.

i would like to think of it as a really bad day, however these bad days are happening abit too often then i'm hoping they would. i mean look at the top 8, i'm quite sure i'm better players then like at least a couple of them. i dont think i'm suffering from a streak of bad luck, must be something else. now all i need to do is find out wads this... 'something else'

ok, end of my monthly post pcq ramblings.
bah
-out-

20050514

Letters to my future self

14th may - argh... the stench

BTT taken yesterday aftn, it was a breeze for me, at least. finished like 3rd in the whole room, not that there are bonus pts for finishing early, but the questions are more straight forward then i thought they would be. i think i would pass. i think.

that examiner at SSDC did seem to have some attitude problem thou. it was quite evident that alot of the ppl there are 1st timers, which also meant that like me, they are quite clueless as to filling in the answer sheet. those who filled up wrongly or couldnt catch up with wad the old man was saying are treated to a unhealthy dose of sarcasm. even thou i didnt do anything wrong, jus hearing wad he had to say abt the other ppl taking the test was enuff to irritate me... alot. LL, thats how the world works sometimes.

last night at work was surprisingly not as tiring. maybe its becos its my 1st night or something. then again we didnt have alot of calls coming from late in the middle of the night. there were 2 cases that were worthy of noting however...

the 1st one was a case of muscle cramp. -_-". some sec 4 moron was playing basketball and apprently got cramps on both his muscles on the thigh regions. he sat down, hoping that the cramps would go away and his friends tried massaging for him. this of course didnt work. i mean u actually have to bear with the pain and strectch the muscles for the cramps to go away, if not slight movements will trigger the cramps again. which was wad happened for the next 45 mins, until they gave up and called for us. quite the nonsense, i must say. my in-charge was the best, in the vehicle, he scared the poor boy abit by pulling out a huge syringe and pretending to prepare for an injection. u shd see the look on the boy's face man. priceless moments.

the 2nd case takes home the trophy for 'call of the night'. some old man randomly got himself drunk. he was seated on a chair, which was very close to a drain. somehow or rather the 2 'hindlegs' of the chair reversed itself into the drain and he fell into the drain of all places. when we got there, we almost couldnt find him, until someone pted out to us his location. its not a particularly large drain either, its jus a regular sized one, it jus happens so that he could fit exactly into it. in his drunken state, he couldnt get out. so wad we did was to extricate him... and while we pulled him up, something fell out of his shorts onto the floor. it took me a full 2 seconds to realise wad had fallen out and that was not until the smell hit me. no wait, not smell.... its STENCH. it was so bad, my junior felt like vomitting on the spot and i switched to breathing with my mouth. saying that it smells like shit here would be so inappropriate cos IT IS SHIT, GOD DAMN IT. for the 1st freaking time in my life, i felt that having a nose is a liability.

into the vehicle, we and my junior are both fighting for window space and the seat as far as possible from the old man. the stench was not only bad, it was enduring... even aft we unloaded him, on our way back, it still stinks so much we were fighting for breathing space again.
brrr. damn drunkards....

-out-

20050513

Letters to my future self

may 12th - too tired

supposed to go for ippt this morning. guess wad.... aft waking up, i decided that... fark it. i dont give a damn anymore. if u wan my $300 so much, u can have it. i'm too tired of trying to bring up the same ridiculous arguments again. no one will listen to us, across the island, ppl like me can only suffer in silence.... i'm approaching the end of the tunnel and i dont care less anymore, as a matter of fact, since i 'failed' my ippt by not attending, i can skip my certification test also, since even passing that wont save me allowance. hah, freedom...

on monday i took time off my day shift to attend the ORD talk held in the academy, which was an utter waste of time, spent the day there listening the officers talk abt stuff that i already know abt... but attendance compulsory, LL. bleh.

life at work truly sucks, not that i dont know of it before, but i'm really thankful that its coming to an end... soon. now all i need to do is try to source for employment opportunies aft i leave.. until say next may when my course starts.

took the time off to go to simlim to get my disc drive replaced today (since i dont have to go for the ippt). it seems that during this 1/2 a yr period that i havent been there, shops have changed their original places and i end up having to walk around hunting for the correct vendor that i got the drive from. even after getting the correct vendor, i end up getting directed to different places 3 times, before finally realising that they wont replace the drive for me, however they would send it back for repairs... ack. oh well, better then none, at least i managed to get my bum off my seat and send it back.

was hoping to be able to return with the drive and grab some CDs while i'm there such that i can burn all the anime into CDs and free up some space (i currently only have 200+mb on my comp, which is pretty absurd). my anime folder it taking up close to 28gb of space *faints*
actually i have close to 40gb space of untapped memory in my hard disk, but due to some mistake that i made during my inital setup process fo this system, i'm unable to go back and restore the memory space (or at least i think i cant) i probably can free up this space when i reformat the comp, which i wont do so unless i off load all the anime into CD 1st.

speaking of anime, i finally finished the FMA series, watching all the way to 4am this morning just to finish it. the final few episodes are quite mind-boggling as they tried to tie up alot of loose ends together and the final pieces of the puzzles are put into place. certain things finally made sense as you watch the last few episodes. the ending is quite sad yet at the same time, gives hope. i heard that there might be a movie in the making for the series, if it will be as gd as the anime series, i'll be waiting for it.

heh, tomorrow is my basic theory test, this time the correct one - one with my name on it. the only problem now it that i havent been doing any revision recently, tsk, better do some reading up tomorrow morning b4 the test, lest i fail tomorrow ><"

alright, to bed
-out-

twins - jian xi ai shen

20050506

Letters to my future self

6th may - anime nation

spent yesterday and today aftn catching up on the anime series that i've been d/ling but havent had the time to watch, jus before heading to work.

as a result, i've watched over 20 single eps of anime and 1 movie:

-transformers: masterforce 28-30
-tsubasa chronicles 1-4
-naruto 133
-gundam seed destiny 28
-full metal alchemist 16-26
-naruto: the movie

man, one would think that at my age i shd consider not watching cartoons anymore (or play cards and read comics for the same reason) but it seems that some habits are pretty hard to kick.

tsubasa chronicles if i'm not wrong is a pretty new series, in fact i only started to d/l them yesterday, it one of the few occasions that i'm trying out a clamp series. so far, the 1st 4 eps are quite gd. it tells of different ppl from different worlds brought together by 'coincidence' and the party of them inevitiably set out in a quest to help the main char recover a girl's memories. old theme, but nice touch to the story.

full metal alchemist has gained much popularity recently ever since it aired in the states and thru cable tv locally. for a series that only has 51 eps, i really can say that it rocks. i'm halfway thru the series now, but every eps so far has been perfect. the storyline is quite serious, thou theres also humour aplenty.

oh well, enuff of reviews for today, off to work
-out-

20050504

Letters to my future self

4th may - regaining confidence

been abit lazy with regards to blogging recently or rather i've become numb to the things happening around me. somethings happen so often recently, they fail to surprise me anymore. take for example VS, i've hit a all time low, losing more often then i can ever remember and struggling, ALOT. like the last PCQ, i struggled to make the cut into top 8, eventually getting myself 'blackmailed' into a top 8 placing and going home with a wild sentinel. sunday's prerelease was not much different. 0-2 drop, then 3-1. total record 3-3, no big deal. *sigh*

then again i've been kept busy recently, most of my net time is spent surfing ebay, trying to sell or buy stuff. sold so much junk this month, it doubled my number of feedback from 20+ to 40+.

still there are some issues at hand with the online sales nonsense, my anachronism which i got for cheap like 2 weeks ago, still hasnt arrived yet. the money from paypal which i transferred to my acct last week, still isnt in. still owe 2 different ppl money, at the same time adrian owes me quite a big sum too.

this morn, eugene asked me if i still had a version of sentinels around. dug abit for my old deck and had it updated. played against ben's medical school, while i did not win all the games (in fact, i dont even think i won half my games) but i did feel the game coming back to me.

oh well, honestly, i think my life's in a mess right now... a schedule of events to come:

8th may - game at CKT
12th may - ippt
13th may - basic theory
15th may - PCQ

still got my aact and some ORD talk which i cant remember the date off... bah

qoute of the day (from brown's podcast today): "35 thousand new jobs... oh yah hor~"

-out-