Letters to my future self

20080827

Letters to my future self

27th aug - plans

started exercising recently for more reasons than one. 1stly, it'd probably come in handy if i get called up for ippt. 2ndly, i'd probably look better with more muscle and less fat. and lastly, i'm actually considering the option of apply to be an obs instructor (since i havent really heard from moe)

giving myself until the end of next month to get myself into shape then start properly looking for a 'serious' job. added a daily jog and a weekly swim to my schedule, on top of my standard static exercise routine, hopefully that would help achieve that goal.

as a sign of how long i havent jogged, a mere one round around the estate yesterday saw me nearly breathless and aching all over today. if thats not awful, i dont know what is ><"

song update:
Lion by May'n and Nakajima Megumi, the 2nd OP for macross frontier (which by the way is absolutely kickass, if u dont know that already)

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20080812

Letters to my future self

12 aug - 雨中漫步

jus finished reading 'the resident tourist' by troy chin, a local who studied in the states. he had a job there in the music industry for awhile, but quit it to return to singapore, with no plan in mind. its written/drawn in a narrative manner, depicting his life back in singapore, with flashbacks of his childhood.

its a rather engaging story, one which i can relate to, since i'm sort of going thru the same phase right now. in any case, it can be read online at http://www.drearyweary.com/ (resident tourist parts 1-3, with more to come?) or the hard copies (content is exactly the same as the online one) can be purchased at $10 per part at sunshine plaza (so far only parts 1 and 2 are printed)

and so after finishing up part 3 today, i went out with plenty of things to think abt. headed out to bishan (my, how much the place has changed since i last visited the place and to think that i used to hang out there on a daily basis for close to 2 yrs), took some pictures of jacob's 'singapore's largest cracker' which is basically a giant cracker made as a promotion stint. following that i headed over to scotts road to see the 'Lifesize F1 car made of chocolate'. it took me awhile to realise that the old scotts shopping centre is no longer there.

The same street, the same person, yet it feels so different. whats changed? the place or the person?

thoughts jus kept running thru my head today as i made my way around today. uncertainty. fear. mum was right, compared to my younger brother, i'm much less receptive of new things. he's always the one to try out new stuff, i'm the hesitant one. afraid of failing.

as i walked around, it started drizzling. its been awhile since i walked in the rain, although the last time it happened, it wasnt by choice. it was back in australia, when it started to rain on my way to the supermarket. heavy rain with no where to hide.

lost is what i feel at the moment. i have no idea where i'm heading and i have no concrete plans. everything has come to a halt since abt 2 months ago, maybe more. i've lost my direction.

i hope i straighten this up soon and start moving on. and i'm certainly hoping that i'm not over-thinking this one.

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20080806

Letters to my future self

6th aug - graduation and beyond

finally graduated now. *phew*
looking at my academic transcript, i cant help but think that i really could have done alot better, but oh well, whats over is over. time to start looking ahead and planning my next steps.

back home in singapore, the heat is like ... woah. considering that i've spent close to 1 month in the australian winter and suddenly switching to the weather here, its a pretty big change.

been catching up with ppl and watching moves for the past few days, will start work at mart soon so at least theres some input into the bank acct for the time being. and if theres anything i learnt over the past couple of days, it'd be that playing the wii can be really tiring and can induce muscle aches.

caught dark knight and red cliff yesterday and today respectively.
the story for dark knight was amazing, so many times in the movie where i felt that the movie might be near its ending and it didnt, it jus went on and on. heath ledger's potrayal of joker was like.... wow. i actually wonder if he can be nominated for (or even win) an oscar now that he's no longer around. that qoute from harvey dent abt "you either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villian" ... soooo cool.

red cliff was pretty awesome as well. the movie was filled with comedic moments, which was somehow different from the way i 'see' those characters, but it did make the movie ...idk, less 'boring' for the non three kingdom fans? was also slightly disappointed that they left the more symbolic moments in the story out, like how liu bei threw his son to the ground aft zhao yun saved him and the palm strike between zhuge liang and zhou yu. bugged me slightly, but the overall presentation was great, plenty of detail in the war scenes and all. am so going to catch the next part when it comes out.

been doing abit of experimenting with cloth, thread and needles as well over the past few days. tried making bags out of felt cloth, makes for nice presentation (with a personal touch) for some of the gifts that i might have to give out over the next few days. completed a prototype yesterday and made my 1st actual one earlier today in less than 3 hrs. although if not for the time contrain, i probably would have done a much better job. crooked stitches dont look very nice ><". my fingers now hurt from all the needle pushing, lol.

i used to think that a moment of awkward silence is bad, i now know that a whole night of awkward silence, is worse.

oh well... heh
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