Letters to my future self

12 aug - 雨中漫步

jus finished reading 'the resident tourist' by troy chin, a local who studied in the states. he had a job there in the music industry for awhile, but quit it to return to singapore, with no plan in mind. its written/drawn in a narrative manner, depicting his life back in singapore, with flashbacks of his childhood.

its a rather engaging story, one which i can relate to, since i'm sort of going thru the same phase right now. in any case, it can be read online at http://www.drearyweary.com/ (resident tourist parts 1-3, with more to come?) or the hard copies (content is exactly the same as the online one) can be purchased at $10 per part at sunshine plaza (so far only parts 1 and 2 are printed)

and so after finishing up part 3 today, i went out with plenty of things to think abt. headed out to bishan (my, how much the place has changed since i last visited the place and to think that i used to hang out there on a daily basis for close to 2 yrs), took some pictures of jacob's 'singapore's largest cracker' which is basically a giant cracker made as a promotion stint. following that i headed over to scotts road to see the 'Lifesize F1 car made of chocolate'. it took me awhile to realise that the old scotts shopping centre is no longer there.

The same street, the same person, yet it feels so different. whats changed? the place or the person?

thoughts jus kept running thru my head today as i made my way around today. uncertainty. fear. mum was right, compared to my younger brother, i'm much less receptive of new things. he's always the one to try out new stuff, i'm the hesitant one. afraid of failing.

as i walked around, it started drizzling. its been awhile since i walked in the rain, although the last time it happened, it wasnt by choice. it was back in australia, when it started to rain on my way to the supermarket. heavy rain with no where to hide.

lost is what i feel at the moment. i have no idea where i'm heading and i have no concrete plans. everything has come to a halt since abt 2 months ago, maybe more. i've lost my direction.

i hope i straighten this up soon and start moving on. and i'm certainly hoping that i'm not over-thinking this one.

-out-