Letters to my future self

22nd jun - "fear of falling"

'fear of falling', the title in an issue of sandman from the 'fables and reflection' compilation.

"It is sometimes a mistake to climb, it is always a mistake never even to make the attempt."

i sort of confessed to her today. we've been chatting on and off for the past weeks. we even had a webcam session last night when she had to stay up late alone at home to get some assignment done, had the webcam on so that i can watch over her (dont ask, i dont know either) . so it got up to the pt where i felt like i was standing at the edge of a cliff... and i decided to take the jump.

i asked if she would believe me if i told her that back then, i flew back to see her.

"Sometimes you wake up. Sometimes the fall kills you. And sometimes, when you fall, you fly."

problem is, i cant tell if i'm falling now... or flying.

-out-