Letters to my future self

20080227

Letters to my future self

27th feb - a bumpy start

sheesh, i finally got my internet connection restored today. thankfully its working as fast as it should (for now, at least). jus arrived here back in my own room on monday, aft spending the weekend over at my cousin's house in brisbane. life without the internet is a pain.

had a whole mountain of computer issues too, apart from the network woes. my dvd drive is officially dead, my graphic card and the PSU (power supply unit) are probably almost there as well. had to spend the whole afternoon trying to jump start my graphic card after it threatened to die out on me. not looking pretty at the moment, only hope that this rig can last me thru this semester then i can dump it and build a new one when i get back.

bought seasons 1-3 of house to tide over the past few days w/o teh internetz. it was a bundle that came with a stress ball, 110aus from kmart. relatively cheap, i think.

qoute of the day:
"i wished my lawn was emo, so it would cut itself..."

btw, would it surprise anyone, if i said that i might consider teaching as a career?

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20080225

Letters to my future self

25th feb - reintroduced to the concept of loneliness

it seemed strange that for a person whos been used to being alone/doing things alone, that i would suddenly feel lonely, and even miss home barely a few days from arriving in GC.

it was only then that i realised what was so different this time round, compared to the other times i've came back here -- i've made new friends.

while this might come naturally to most people, for a social inadequate like myself, meeting new people is already pretty daunting, let alone making new friends. my education train wreck is partially the reason why i havent made new friends in awhile...

i still keep in touch with several secondary school classmates, although its new been reduced to yearly catchups or random chats online, largely due to location differences. i no longer keep in touch with my poly classmates, aft dropping out from the course. then there was the time for informatics and ns, which are both a big LOL, and then overseas.

much as i try to convince myself that i know alot of ppl from all over the world playing wow, meeting people online isnt quite the same as meeting and interacting with real people.

this time the trip back to singapore, due to course requirements, i took a change in working environment, which was in many ways more rewarding then i had thought initially. never mind the horrible pay, i've meet new people, change my perspective on many things and found new meaning for my existence. no doubt, the actions which are taken during this recent trip home would have repercussions on the decisions i would make in the future and for that, i am thankful...

Stephanie - friends (Gundam 00 ED2)
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20080219

Letters to my future self

19th feb - lame

and so, i went all the way to vivocity to buy something, only to realise that the shop had branches in hougang central AND hougang south.

right. *golfclap*

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20080213

Letters to my future self

12th feb - 寂寞

past few days have been quite sad really. ever since i stopped work, i've jus been cooping myself up at home. there isnt even anyone else at home, parents at work, bro's back in camp. man, it already feels like i'm back in australia.

catching a movie alone, thats a new low, even for me
*sigh* ><"

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20080206

Letters to my future self

5th feb - quarter of a century

life seems to get abit more troubling as one ages. ppl around u seem to have a tendency to remind u of how old you are, and how little things u seemed to have accomplished in life.

and so... i'm finally 25 this yr.

i'm not exactly thrilled by this fact. mind's a mixed bag of thoughts at the moment.

how i wish i'm not so inept when it comes to social interactions with others.

new yr's over the next few days, time to answer some of the same annoying questions that get asked EVERY yr. *sigh*

"what if... one day you wake up to find that, everything you believe to date, is all false and that you've been wrong, all these time?"

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