Letters to my future self

25th feb - reintroduced to the concept of loneliness

it seemed strange that for a person whos been used to being alone/doing things alone, that i would suddenly feel lonely, and even miss home barely a few days from arriving in GC.

it was only then that i realised what was so different this time round, compared to the other times i've came back here -- i've made new friends.

while this might come naturally to most people, for a social inadequate like myself, meeting new people is already pretty daunting, let alone making new friends. my education train wreck is partially the reason why i havent made new friends in awhile...

i still keep in touch with several secondary school classmates, although its new been reduced to yearly catchups or random chats online, largely due to location differences. i no longer keep in touch with my poly classmates, aft dropping out from the course. then there was the time for informatics and ns, which are both a big LOL, and then overseas.

much as i try to convince myself that i know alot of ppl from all over the world playing wow, meeting people online isnt quite the same as meeting and interacting with real people.

this time the trip back to singapore, due to course requirements, i took a change in working environment, which was in many ways more rewarding then i had thought initially. never mind the horrible pay, i've meet new people, change my perspective on many things and found new meaning for my existence. no doubt, the actions which are taken during this recent trip home would have repercussions on the decisions i would make in the future and for that, i am thankful...

Stephanie - friends (Gundam 00 ED2)
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