Letters to my future self

24th jan - the heartless

of late, i seemed to have lost the gift of sympathy and empathy. like the other day, this guy got hit on the head with a beer bottle (note to self: beer bottles and heads dont match). there was alot of blood. strange thing was that he was standing outside the NPP, next to his fren and a police officer and no one seems to be helping him staunch the bleeding. blood jus kept dripping from his head and onto the floor. heck, he wasnt even offered a seat.

well, while he was being bandaged up, the only thing that came to my mind was how bad the would was, but rather the big mess that will appear aft the whole episode is over. a rather big mess that i'll have to clean up.

this job kills one's ability to feel for others. we have to treat everyone as equals. emotions cannot affect our judgement. i'm not sure if i feel i'm a better person.

anyway my habit of whining is up and running again. need to keep it in check. i blame adran and his kuku pile of cards for bringing the demon out again. heh, to think he runs demon in his pile. irony.

gaming news-

-vs's up as usual, pcq's this weekend.
-ebaying will cool off for a while, acquired most of the stuff that i need to finish up my playsets already
-kingdom hearts: chain of memories is currently running on a emulator on my pc, great stuff. den again kingdom hearts on ps2 was great too. those who found the game enjoyable on the ps2 should like this too.

tsk, its 1am, i have to work tomorrow and i'm still in front of my comp...
i'm so screwed.... ack
-out-