Letters to my future self

3rd mar - fear

last night wasnt so busy, its jus that we didnt get much sleep. came back very tired in the morning.

last night i also wasnt quite myself, had some difficulty trying to keep up with wad my fellow co- workers were doing.

jus realised that i have a new fear - the smell of blood. didnt really realise it until yesterday, when a drunk supposingly went to punch his bathroom mirror. needless to say, it was all over the floor. when we went into the room, i began to feel sick. excused myself to go downstairs to prepare the other stuff.

probably the traumatising effects of that call many months back that involved a knife a suicide attempt and even more blood. i remember nearly vomitting for that one and returned back to base all pale.

apart from drunks, my other dreaded case would be family dispute. yesterday we had one that last for close to 2hrs, that even got the inspector from the nearest NPC down. its was like unfillial son vs the whole family clan. eventually the son was put into police custody cos he had some previous record or something liddat. oh well...

alright, gotta go make dinner then to work
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