Letters to my future self

7th apr - a screech followed by a bang, over and over again....

today is one of those wierd days where by trauma cases exceed the number of medical cases. the wierdest part however of these cases is that... its all road traffic acidents... on the same stretch of road.

coincidence?

it started at 10 lasted until close to 2. 3 different cases, one aft another, same stretch of road, all traffic accidents. bike crashes into taxi, lorry rams into van, lorry rams into bicycle. in fact somewhere btw the 2nd and last incident, there was actually yet another traffic accident along the same stretch, except there were no injuries thus we werent dispatched.

the 1st 2 cases were quite fine, we sent 1 guy to the hospital and the rest suffered very minor injuries, opted not to go to the hospital.

the last case however, was unique. it was my 1st case of a cardiac arrest of traumatic origin. it was not a pretty sight. on arrival, her head was in a pool of blood and she's not responding. very bad head injury, maybe even a fractured skull. there was alot of blood, perhaps the most i've ever seen up to date and it didnt stop there. en route, it jus kept flowing and flowing, even into the A&E department. poor thing, she was only abt 20+. the worst part, she had no identification on her, say for a handphone. so the hospital couldnt even inform her family members. she didnt make it...

not to be supersitious, but some say supernatural forces are at work.
strangely enuff, the road became quiet again aft the lady departed.

*shudders*

last night kun asked me abt my decision to sell my boardgames, asking if it had anything to do with wad he wrote in his blog.

the truth is, yes indeed.
i should have stopped when i could, but i didnt. i should have sensed it when all we did during the weekends at my place was to sit around and ask "wad next?"
i choose to think that a larger variety of games would solve the problem. how naive.

we dont even share the same defination of fun. all of u would perhaps enjoy pure fun and laughter, i on the other hand prefer the depth in gameplay, the intrigue challenges, outwitting each other. we are that far apart in our thinkings.

at the end of it all, a boardgame can nv be a 1 player game, like how it takes at least 2 hands to clap. even if i like the games alot, if i'm the only person who likes then, then i'm jus one very sad individual.

like the warcraft sets, i loved them, but the number of times they were played can be counted with the fingers on 1 hand. i would agree the base set was pretty random due to the resource system. the expansion fixed it, thus i thought i might be able to reintroduce it into the group again. that weekend that i 1st got the set, i read the rules in the aftn. but when i suggested it in the evening, all i got was a pair of "huh, warcraft arh" faces, which prompted me to make the excuse that i forgot abt the rules and it will be a pain in the ass to go thru it again.

which explains y my warcraft expansion set is open yet untouched (*insert sales pitch* so does anyone wan to buy it now?)

my intial reaction to all this was anger (then again, i react with anger most of the time anyway...) i mean, all the time, money, effort... then i realised that i can fault no one except myself. i allowed all of it to happen despite knowing that it would... eventually.

so pls ppl, i would geniunely wish to see my sets go to some new owners that can fully appreciate their contents instead of them staying with me and jus collecting dust. everything is still pretty much still up for grabs except for the pueto rico set, which i've decided not to sell for sentimental reasons.

i'm tired... very tired
-out-