Letters to my future self

16th jul - drama

its amazing how a simple online game can possibly affect a person's real life emotions. once or twice i've yelled out for joy when i won a really rare drop. i've even had a guildmate done jus that, he's wife stared at him and say "u didnt even look so excited when we got married", he had to take the evening off from the raids to arrange a dinner to make up to her. *heh*

i left my guild for a 2nd time yesterday. it was an extremely painful and upsetting experiance, but i was pushed beyond breaking point and i wasnt going to tolerate somethings anymore. i work hard towards improving myself and my character, doing the things i need to do and at the right time. instead of respect, i got ridiculed by the fellow members of my class. it might have been a joke, but if it keeps repeating itself, it kinda wears a person down.

i left in the middle of the run, made a post in our forums to apologise and for my last farewells, took a shower and went to bed. when i got up today, i went to chk on the forum, the replies on my post, brought a tear to my eye. it was both exhilarating and upsetting. exalted to know that i had the respect the ppl in my guild and upsetting cos i do not forsee myself rejoining them again.

*sigh*

on other news, the mrbrown saga seems to be wrapping up. i'm still pretty much upset abt the removal of the column, its one of those things i actually look forward to, every week. and also annoyed at THE management for constantly being an arse, so much for freedom of speech, oh wait, sorry, we're talking abt singapore. freedom of speech doesnt exist. if anything, the website's still around, i still go there regularly. its one of those few things that make me feel connected to singapore even though i'm away. besides, whats better then starting a day with a smile on ur face?

-out-